Today I desire….

April 2, 2012 in Articles, Kanhaiya Dasa by Nityananda Rama dasa

 

Today I desire

 

(Dedicated To My Beloved Spiritual Father Srila Prabhupada)

 

Today I desire to live in Vrindavan, where there is The Lotus Dust of my beloved Lord Shri Krishna,

Today I desire to smear myself with that Dust, with which the most sinful become purified as the milky ocean…

Today I desire to chant and glorify the names of Shri Radha and Krishna, and want to know nothing else more than this…

Today I desire to become mad with ecstasy, when I chant their names…

Today I desire to be in the mad people, who have even forgotten their own names and only remember Madhava’s ..

If being mad is the criteria, I desire to be mad, knowing no obligations, nothing else but remember Keshva’s names…

How long do I need to pretend to be one of these materialistic people, who only want to satisfy their own senses…

Today I desire to forget my own senses forever and satisfy the senses of my most dear Friend Krishna…

Today I desire to abandon everything, today I desire to give up all the opulences I have,

Today I desire to even give up my remaining breaths, if they don’t recite the names of Krishna…

The world has taken the shelter of that Madhusudan, and I am left here alone tied up my unnecessary worldly desires…

Today I desire to break up all unnecessary relations and reestablish my forgotten relationship with my Friend…

Tell me where can I find Him… I am looking everywhere, having no sign of Him –

but when I am in the association of His pure devotees, who simply want nothing else but to hear/chant His names..

I find Him – I find HIM right in the center – enjoying the ecstasies that His devotees relish…

Today I desire to sing His glories out loud – as loud as I can so the everyone can hear and revive their lost relationship with that Govardhan lifter….

All I desire today is your blessings – to always remain in the shelter of His pure Devotees,

To always remain under the shelter of my beloved spiritual father Srila Prabhupada,

Who has very mercifully accepted this most abominable creature, His own….

And ultimately reach my final destination, That Vrindavana Dham… That Radha Kunda Dham, that Vamsivata, that Yamunateer Dhama…

Today I desire to reside in Vrindavana, not as an opulent person but even as a beggar….

Today I cry for the mercy of Lord Nityananda, Lord Gaura Hari…of all the Vaishnavas….

You can fulfill everyone’s desires – Please do not reject my plea….. Please do not reject my plea…..

 

Hari Bol

Your Humble Servant

-KanhaiyaDasAnudas

He reason ill who tells that Vaisnavas die, When thou art living still in sound! The Vaisnavas die to live, and living try, To spread the Holy Name around !”

(Poem by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakura)

“I will never die. I shall live from my books, and you will utilize.”

His Divine Grace A.C Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada

(Interview, July 16th, 1975, Berkeley, California)